Of heavy heart and tears.....

I missed Rebecca a lot today. Yeh i miss everyone who's left (a TON) but with them my subconscious keeps telling me that i can just call them up and get together. But with Rebecca i always hang out with her every Sunday morning all morning long at church and the two of us would just sit there in sunday school and laugh and laugh. (which is pretty much all we do when together.........good times). I have spent nearly every sunday school with her since 4th or 5th grade. We even shared moments such as Sam following us around with his lego's (i thought he was very annoying) and the infamous day when Joel Benson entered our lives with his albino squirels and stories of the great state of Illinois......) and starting in 9th grade i saw her 6 days a week every week for four entire years. We've cried together, we've laughed until we cried together, we've seen each other at our best and worst. we've made complete and utter idiots out of ourselves. We survived the stresses of school plays together, Biology 2 class, Bob Jones and senior trip, we've watched countless movies and eaten countless bags of popcorn, we've shared hopes and dreams and done certain end of the year traditions together (although i joined sophomore year.....).
Even though she's only 45 minutes away, its not the same, we're all moving on in our lives for better or worse. I knew i'd cry but not as much as i did. I miss that girl

To all of you who have left i havent forgotten about you either.
To Adrienne: that first birthday party, i felt awkward around the quiet beauty whom i didnt know would come to be such a good friend. we've had such fun together, dreamed, discussed extremely random and strange things....;) I miss you so much girl. You're so spontaneous and fun! Horray for days of our lives and pop tarts. Randomly swiming in your pool. Fun times in the corn feild.............i lov ya!

jared: you prob wont read this, but you've been such a good friend. I remember sophomore year we had the most awkward and repetative conversations over lunch.....and now we can always talk, or enjoy and un-awkard silence as shared between friends

Joe: our friendship has historically been rocky since the beginning when you couldnt stand me and i had a crush on your best friend ;) oh my that was long ago. No i remember before that, stealing your puzzles and throwing away your chocolate in sunday school. Thanks for letting me cry on your shoulder and helping me survive spanish class. I may hate you at times :) but I'll always have a special place in my heart for my friend joe-joe-james :). God bless you

emily r: Ha ha, i remember when before we were even friends and we did living nativity together and were a "click".......heh heh. We've shared so many laughs and even more 'Tirzah moments" when i was talking (loudly of course) about someone and he (or maybe she) was right there behind me. ENGLISH CLASS. I miss you but i know you're having a great time at college! dont forget me ever! i wont forget you

emily w; i remember being jealous of you in like 4th grade because your hair was longer than mine (what????? when?), i was SOOOO wierd! but then i still am. We had such fun in bible quiz together over the years with our junior highers! (and certain faba friends....;) ). thanks for driving me around all those years:) i still want your impala! lov ya girlie!

if your not leaving or havent yet, Im so glad your here! Dont desert me!!!