Beauty

What is the point in beauty? does it make you wiser, stronger or more of anything worthwhile? Sure it's fun to be noticed and attract others, but really how superficial!

i have been told that i'm pretty, though i don't understand why, and even hot (sorry if this offends anyone), even more baffling. I always feel so awkward. So what do you say when someone complements you on your looks? 'thanks, i try' NOT. I always feel so stupid...

But really: what does beauty achieve (and really this is general, i'm really not trying to sound stuck up if it sounds that way, cuz believe me, looking at myself in the mirror everyday is enough to convince me...). Does it make you happy? i have yet to be proven wrong, but no. Sure manipulative persons can use it to make themselves rich or famous, but what's the point? in the end all things are destroyed save the soul.

why should i spend time trying to be beautiful, when the only thing important to be beautiful is the soul. 'Let your beauty be on the inside. A gentle and quiet spirit....' (enormous SIGH).

Yeh i'd be nice to look good for a future spouse, but more important, when i finally meet with my bridegroom on judgement day, it would mean more to me than anything else to have my best friend and lover look me in the eyes and say: "Tirzah, you're beautiful".