The Grass is Always Greener...

The Grass is always greener on the other side! And I mean always -or thats how it appears to be. I spend so much time thinking "I'd be happier if..." that I don't stop to appreciate all the blessings which God has given me. Only later do I realize how selfish I was, I want to recall those blessings which have gone, and the cycle begins all over again!
One example of this is that at the end of the school year, I didn't want it to be over, because I was actually enjoying myself! I spent half the summer wanting to go back to school again, instead of being thankful for family time during the summer. Then, when I began working, I spent so much time dreaming about school starting that I ignored the others that God had placed around me. And then, to make matters even worse: the first day of school, I wanted desperately to go back to summer break again!
The whole thing just goes to show how selfish and ungrateful I am. And when I think about it what I was saying to God was: "What I want is best, not your way!" . Just thinking about it humbles me.
At the retreat I decided that the area I am going to work on this year is: DELIGHTING myself in God. That means in all situations! Although I didnt do so well at first, by God's grace, I am actually exciting about coming to school now. So PLEASE, friends, keep reminding me of this throughout the year because I will need the accountability!!