to clarify any confusion my last post may have caused i will repeat where im coming from: im a selfish, self-centered 18 year old, who though at times would pay handsomely to know God's will for her entire life, is at the same time thankful that she doesnt know it all. Im not denying the selfishness of the desire to spend a life all alone, but at the same time, i am saying that it is indeed better to do so, than it is to enter into such a holy design of God's haphazardly without thought, just becuase you desire the benefits of having a husband or wife. there is much to be said of the ministry of singles as there is of the ministry of married couples. and it is not God's design that we all marry. and i know good and well that im entirely too young to know now whether or not im getting married in my life, im merely pointing out that at this time in my life, i have no desire, whatsoever, nor tempation to enter into such an arrangement. Im sure, no positive, that marriage is a wonderful thing, an incredible blessing, and something to look forward to, as in God's will. Becuase in His will all things are good, for those who love him, for those who are called according to his purposes. so though as a selfish 18 year old i dont look on marriage as the incredible blessing that im sure it is, i think it is okay, at my age to hold it in a reverance, and healthy fear. i think many singles would do better to hold a little more of a healthy fear of it. but as i was pointing out, that if it is God's will that i marry, if it is God's will that dont have a job, than thats fine! my point was that though it doesnt sound fun to selfish me, im okay with that!! many many times God's will doesnt sound like the average person's idea of 'fun' or 'sucessful'. and that is okay! becuase only in God's will can i have the peace that passes all understanding. and true joy. and i want that! i want that over fun, over what sounds good to me. .....i hope that i have conveyed this all in a humble adittude, though im afraid i have not. i make no further excuse as to my opinions.....i crawl into bed now.